Maybe the camera crew is at someone else’s house,
a spotlight haloing over another’s fleshy story.
Maybe the mailman is delivering the good news
to your neighbor, or a different city entirely,
and you come home to a rash of catalogues,
the second notice for a doctor’s bill, a plea
from the do-gooders for whatever you can spare.
Maybe you haven’t cleaned your kitchen floor in weeks,
forgotten to nourish the front garden, spilled too much
coffee in your car, weaving through traffic.
Maybe you are 10 pounds heavier than last year.
Maybe your skin is betraying your age.
Maybe winter is ravaging your heart.
Maybe you are afraid, or lonely, or furious, or wanting out
of every commitment you entered with such vigor and trust.
Maybe you’ve bitten your nails down to the quick,
chosen your meals badly, ignored the advice of those
who know you best. Maybe you are stubborn as a toddler.
Maybe you are clumsy or foolish or hasty or reckless.
Maybe you haven’t read all the books you’re supposed to.
Maybe your handwriting is still illegible after all these years.
Maybe you spent too much on a pair of shoes you didn’t need.
Maybe you left the window open and the rain ruined the cake.
Maybe you’ve destroyed everything you've ever wanted to save.
Still.
If anything, believe in your own strange loveliness.
How your body, even as it stumbles, angles for light.
The way you hold a dandelion with such yearning and tenderness,
the whole world stops spinning.
4 comments:
I am a 10-Line Tuesday subscriber. I feel compelled to tell you that I swear your poems are getting better and better. The last few have been lights out. Thank you.
Another wonderful piece, and perfect for this look back and self criticise time of year. Thank you.
"still."
beautiful! Thank you for reading the anxieties in my mind back to me and helping me to remember my own mind.
Ahhh, as usual, you have captured the increment of time you were stalking, nabbed it, brought it to the ground for examination, then let it go to wobble away under its own power...and we know, we know, it will fully recover, as will we.
Thanks, as usual, for your amazing eye and Annie Oakley aim with those words of your'ne.
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