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Thursday, December 29, 2005

poem to the new year


















There you are, as always,
approaching, approaching,
dangling like a mess of carrots,
playing your constant peek-a-boo,
inescapable as a virus
and suddenly the pressure is on
to make those final, hopeful amends,
reduce oneself into a slim, aerodynamic spectacle,
and finally, in a last-ditch, gut-clenching effort,
to morph into sudden, spectacular greatness.

As always, you are like religion.
It's hard not to want to please you.
But instead of a great leaping, evangelical stride
what usually happens is an evisceration,
me peeling my own layers, scrubbing the dirt off like mad,
demanding enormous things of myself at the end of December
I "forget" just weeks into January,
which is when the guilt sets in,
simple and cold and sharp as ice.

What I want, I suppose, is for you to be a little gentler
with your arrival, not so earnest and punctual.
Don't worry if you're late this time.
I don't mind if you finish your book, drink another cup of tea, sleep.
I'm fine, really.
Can entertain myself plenty.
Buy something nice, on sale.
Rent a movie.
Enjoy what's left in the donut box.
Stay out of the rain.
Keep myself dry and soft and happy
for a little while longer.

4 comments:

la vie en rose said...

ha!!! excellent!

snowsparkle said...

i love the feel of this...i'm bringing this poem along with me as i step into the new year... so spacious and generous. xxoo- snowsparkle

dweezila said...

i agree, yes, all of it can wait. It's overated anyway, all that sucking in of the stomach and all. I say yes to coffee with mocha mix and yes to getting under the covers with movies and more movies and even movies...let's make ourselves scarce.

girlzoot said...

'no so earnest and punctual'

Delightful, and sweet. A marvelous hello to the beginning of another year.